Purpose.

What's goal of Martial Arts?

I think that the purpose of Martial Arts practice is to be better person than one was day before.

I think that thinking is also training and practice of Martial Arts. Not only physical exercises.


... but wise training is also worthwhile.


I think that one should train regularly, without time-gaps, if one wants to train wisely.

Starting from beginning now and then is very discouraging, one should keep form & shape to stay motivated.


Wish for Love.

Is it possible for me to become nice, gentle, well-mannered, well-behaved, nice-looking,
nice-smelling, ... human again?

... is it possible for me to be as a buddhist woman i Love wants/needs/wishes me to be?

... is it possible for me to meet her and talk with her after i am 'humanized' that way?


At young age, i've trained ... focused on real combat & meditation ... assuming that sooner or later, i'll be nice looking, as martial artists on films are.


... nothing happens without cause, however ... i've assumed too much.


I prioritize love & gentleness over brutality ... so i won't practice martial arts combat if it endangers my higher priorities.


... i feel i owe going to martial arts clubs i've trained in in past, to appear there and exchange lessons.


... i do not need to showoff, however ... i do not want to endanger love.

... i think that being gentle, being nice, being compassionate & wise is the way to be truly worthy of love.

... and i wish for that.